I've already decided that I will,
I know that you can stop it from happening.
None of it is real.
it's all some fantastic creation of the spirit,
a whimsicle coincidence
that just so happens to define life
Why is it that I have faith?
Why do I have faith in you?
I already know that you will fail me.
I'll be left to fend for myself, wiping the dirt from my face.
Yet I draw you up by the hand
save you from your demise-
when I already know
that your existence
will be the death of me.
white female 17- amazingly crazy, nice hair, great body, ex-model (more cultural less high fashion) seeks male 17-25- sentimental, engaging personality, crazy tendencies, with character. -- go ahead and respond if you read this and are interested, considering I have few friends on this site... it's unlikely
- Current Mood: curious
On another note, I think I've figured out what I want to do for my senior seminar project- it's going to be a compalation of things that all tie in with a basic theme "how be the best senior you can be". I'm going to start a trash pick-up club, teach the health classes about schitzophrenia, get the ingredients of the lunch menu posted, become a bbbs mentor, get into college and apply for scholarships. So basically it's going to be awsome, but also hard work.
- Current Mood: calm
I messed around with some of my clothes yesterday, that was fun - I was so rediculously bored. It's funny that I'm saying this, but I really miss school, I can't wait to start my senior year! I'm distiguished ha ha. Since I'm on the subject of waiting, my camera is supposed to be back pretty soon- I might just have to check on that, call them up and what not. I need to take some more picture, my creative zen screaming for a lense. ... I think I'll go do that now
- Current Mood:awake
I really want some underwear right now... it's like a craving... must shop for underwear- not that I don't have enough, I have enough thongs to floss an army. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'm so freaking hyper right now, I don't know what's come over me- I'm thinking like a million miles a minute- I'm going stir crazy! I've been in this house for tooooooooo long. I need to get out and go somewhere but I don't know where to go or what to do... just that I need to for sanity's sake.
breathing in........ breathing out....... okay I'm somewhat calm now.
- Current Mood: crazy
on another note, I'm reading this book that my grandmother wants me to read before visiting her A Guide to Rational Living. I've come to the conclusion that my personality is disturbed or wrather that I allow things to influence my emotions in a disturbing way... that doesn't sound quite right still... I allow myself to be easily disturbed by other people's actions- there we go, that's more like it. I can come to terms with the fact that I have a problem- that is after all the first step to fixing one- and it helps that it's "rational" because really what is the deffinition of "rational"... _ being able to reason, grasping stability- these are all the things that I've been looking for in my life, but didn't actually take action to acheive.
- Current Mood: contemplative
- Current Mood:determined